On Friendship.

Rosanna and I last night.

I don't have many friendships, once high school was over, everyone drifted apart. We all went on living our lives and slowly stopped keeping in touch. I met some amazing people my senior year of high school. They were the reason I became so much more involved in school and came out of my shell. We had great laughs, great memories and I'll never forget them. I could try to get back in touch with them, but I'll leave them where they are. I'll keep those amazing memories and that's where they'll stay. To me, there are reasons why I couldn't just pick my phone up and get back in touch with them. I think that's just how life goes, you move on and lose touch with people. That doesn't mean you can't keep those memories and remember them every so often and smile at the good times you've both shared. 

There are some friendships though that will last. This is one of them.

Rosanna and I knew each other in elementary school. We didn't talk as much, but in middle school we became closer. We even had a crush on each other. We dated for two weeks and realized it wasn't working (I wonder why? Hah!) 

We've had our fallout's and said things to one another we didn't mean. We'd always come back to each other and it made us even closer. Once high school ended, we drifted a bit. Sometimes one of us would text the other saying how much we missed each other, but never actually got together to catch up. Then I moved to Texas. 

I remember missing her more than anyone one day while in Texas and we did that quick five-minute catch up through text. It was heartbreaking. I missed my best friend and I didn't think we'd see each other again or have anything as remotely close as we did in high school. It was a friendship I really didn't want to give up or lose all together. 

I remember coming home and she was at the front of my mind. She had no idea I was back home, so I texted her and saw what she was up to and let it slip I was back home. She was at my home within 20 minutes. She was having a hard time, she didn't have friends, either. She missed high school as much as I did and wished she could go back. 

That's the thing about Rosanna and I; no matter how long we go without talking, we always seems to be there for the other at the exact time we need. She came over, we had some beers and talked about everything going on in our lives since we last saw each other. 

Last night she came over again and I just felt so whole and happy again. I mean, it's not that I was depressed or anything, but whenever her and I talk, I always leave that conversation feeling so happy. We talked about everyone from high school and what they've been up to. I love talking about it. Though I don't talk to any of them today, it's always a hilarious talk, reminiscing all of the things we did in high school with other people and finding out how they're doing today. There are so many memorable times in high school that I'll never forget and I love remembering them with people that were there. 

Prom 2009. I would do anything to go back to this night.

We both agree on one thing: we wish we could go back to high school. Senior year to be exact. Her and I both were really involved in school. We stayed after almost everyday to work on the school plays like Rent and The Wizard of Oz. We have the same favorite teachers that we wish we could talk to and catch up with. We both love the fact that I won Prom King and completely pissed off a large group of those seniors because of it. 

I remember in middle school she got me heavily into a band, Evanescence. Her and I would talk on the phone for hours and I'd hear their music in the background. We'd spend hours sitting in her car in high school listening to them and talking about our future. That's something I miss most, she'd pick me up, we'd get food and just sit in her car and talk. She was always the friend I could be completely open with and wouldn't be judged for anything I said.

Rosanna and I have been through a lot of shit together. I cared so much about her in middle school, probably more than anyone else. She was dealing with a lot of self-mutilation and our friends and I tried getting her help. We were in a teachers room crying our eyes out just wanting her to be okay again. I tried keeping up with her after that to make sure she wasn't doing it anymore and I can say she hasn't done it since. 

Guidance counselors office.

She's the one friend I have that I haven't lost touch with. I hope in another ten years I can still say we're friends and we're closer than ever.